Wow it’s been a while since I last blogged, finding the time now seems impossible. Obviously I’m currently on school holidays, so back to 24/7 care of the twinbops and my oh my are they at a demanding age. I can’t even go to the toilet without Poppy clinging onto me for dear life. This leap better end soon, no one needs a cling on! With the lack of sleep and the ever dibilitiating lack of confidence I have found myself questioning if I even wanted to be a parent this last week. This is no doubt the toughest gig ever! But there are good things on the horizon to keep me going and as my fellow twin mum Liv said “it’s changing your mindset to getting through”. Next month we have our Willow special day and we are off to Edinburgh minus the twins! 🙌🙌 I feel lots of booze coming on, although we went out on holiday totally forgetting the girls were with us. Got shitfaced and then had to deal with the reality in the morning. This basically involved me puking to the theme song of CBeebies show me, show me! This is progress as my uni mates will recall that time I puked in a sainsburys carrier bag, that had holes in, in our kitchen as my housemate was occupying the loo! #epicfail
We also have a trip to Nice with the family. Round two on a plane with the twins, this time with no grandparents. To be fair they were pretty darn good and they coped with the heat abroad remarkably.
Life is pretty much back to normal it’s easy to forget some days what we have been through this last year. In July I had my first post cancer mammogram. I was so nervous and made a friend come with me. Walking in just flooded back all the memories and I even had the same radiographer do it! What are the chances. Anyway 4 weeks later and I finally got the results last week. It was all clear. The news we all wanted to hear and boy did it feel good. As any of my cancer survivor friends will know the aftermath is still with you everyday. I still look in the mirror and hate what is staring back at me. It’s like a constant reminder of the battle I fought, but I’m here and must be thankful. Plus you all get to listen to me dribble on a complete load of nonsense and make a dick of myself on Instagram!